i was unable to see taylor today. the phone calls to diane went ignored and unanswered as i knew they would. it's ok. things are going to turn around very soon. i called this morning to wish taylor a beautiful day and that was great! what is even better (THANK YOU RENEE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART) is she drove me all the way out to their house aka the ayers compound and i left the gifts at the door (nobody was home). i was shaking as we drove the distance down the long dirt road. my eyes pealed on any detail or sign of cody & taylor and their surroundings. a little hat left hanging on the fence, their bikes, dexter the dog...this is the first time i have been out to the property in well over 3 years. it's scary and cold and dark and i have a whole lotta fear that surrounds that place so going out there to seek my children that i haven't seen in just as long is a HUGE MONUMENT for me. i did it though, with support.on other news...i am continuing to follow the pre-juice feasting habits.still ready as ever to get this journey on the go and at the same time saying goodbye to some favorite foods for a few months. i have 3 avocados left...some walnuts & dates i will make milk out of tomorrow, finishing up the bananas and nut butters too. um...these are some of the raw food attachments i have going right now.
today i ordered the vita mix and green star juicer to support me throughout the next 3 months. tomorrow i order the produce by the case from the co-op to be picked up friday.
alright, this is it for me tonight. much to tired to keep this up.
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