CRAZYiNESS

here is the photo i couldn't download yesterday that i wanted to share.  i have kombucha on top of the granola bars in the dehydrator and to the side in the back a fresh batch of sauerkraut that is almost ready to be harvested.  i have really enjoyed learning and practicing to ferment. 

i have noticed something special in the past few days happening naturally.

i will share because it relates to the juice feasting journey i am getting VERY ready to begin.

i have been gravitating towards simple meals and juice when i have a choice and i am eating less often.  the dense foods are feeling too heavy and i can't eat them.  

like the granola bars, nope, one bite and i am good.  i choose to reach for a whole food option instead.  even while making the fun foods for others i am drinking water and juicing lemon and happily doing so without filling up on what i am making.  i am relieved that i could experience this test before the feast because i wondered how that might work for me.  the creative outlet lately has been creative arts in the kitchen making yummy live food.  practicing those skills and testing out the knowledge i just obtained.  i don't plan to stop while i am juicing.  

last night i woke up at 2:15 am (thanks rich) and i could not go back to sleep no matter what i did.  my mind was so happy to be fixed on the upcoming juice feast.  kind of like christmas eve excitement.  i just laid there for hours and watched the mind play out SO much stuff related to juice feasting and future possibilities that may come from it.  kind of like branches on a tree, new ones kept growing from the trunk.  i finally put my feet to the floor at 6am and poured myself a cup of herbal tea and started drinking a quart of msm/lemon water (a j.f. habit i am starting early).  i wish i could type that i went out for a walk before work.  i didn't, the excuse was that it is too wet and cold.

anyway. 

besides the juice feast i have a HUGE amount of clutter in my mind that would like to come out and be dealt with soon.

something that cracks me up right now is thinking about the "order to get a job" i just received hand delivered by the sheriff from the department of child support services.  i can't help but laugh.  so i have to get moving on situating all that non sense legal BULLSHIT out!  

for those of you who don't know here's the brief of it.  i am supposed to pay child support to my ex husband who is on disability & doesn't even have custody of the kids.  his parents legally kidnapped them from me and have MUCH more money than me and claim to be able to provide a better material life for them than i can.  there's much more to all this, that's just the quick gist.

bottom line - i have to get some FIRE and expose this CRAZYiNESS and get my boys back into my life!

the dream come true is to have them living with me and away from all the alienation that happens around them.

sorry to have to end this on such a direct note.  just have to get to it!!!