i came home tonight so jazzed up that i organized all the fresh local produce i purchased today at the farmers market and did all the dishes! oh how great that feels right now.... and i will thanking myself in the early morning when i wake up for the walk down santa rosa creek.
today i woke up happy.
that, is a relief, since yesterday i made up so many ridiculous stories about the past and future and while doing it noticing how much of the present moment i was wasting. the only peace of mind i got was when i went out for a beautiful afternoon walk up bridge street hill with Renee, even a few times then i observed the mind wanting to interrupt the listening. i am thankful that today was not a repeat of yesterday. i even asked mind at one point...um...what's going on, why are you going off on lies and nonsense? what came back is detoxing and i left it at that.
today is day 5 of getting back into 100% raw organic and at least 95% local fresh produce. over the holidays (big time stresses going on with the car accident and missing my boys) i turned to some food that wasn't the best. i think on christmas day i went way overboard, i don't think i ate anything raw and i drank coffee all day. that was a tough one.
and that's me using food, like a drug addict it feels.
i know what the difference is. i know how i wish to feel and i feel my best eating raw and juicing every morning and drinking herbal teas. i feel like running and spending time in nature and loving myself and others and being compassionate and wanting to do my part to be as eco as possible. that is how i wish to feel everyday. i wish for myself to be genuinely happy and feeling blessed all of the time, constantly, forever! do what i love and love what i do, always!
today, in the feeling of happiness i am aware that it feels amazing and that's what i am to be experiencing all the time, no matter what. i remember a time in my life that i was always happy. friends told me that they liked being around me because i was always smiling and happy and have a positive attitude and i remember that feeling authentic and real and i know i can feel that way again. real soon, ok, start now. i do my best.
on another subject, i registered to vote today. hurray for the lady at farmers market with the table to do just that. now i have to research how i will vote for. or i could just ask the friends i know that share the same ideas for some thoughts on this election.
this is all i have for the blog tonight, i am feeling like i need to cozy up for sleeping with onyx the cat. i love her.
Goodnight!
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